updates ;D

woow , so much on my mind. so i just found out that my mom is pregnant and she's having an abortion, because right now theres just so much going on and she doesnt think she could provide the best life for this baby. Everytime i think about it, it breaks my heart and i cry. i couldve had another baby brother or sister. yeah its sad but ill support my mom no matter what. Anyways, everything at home has been good .. i guess. Me and my mom are getting closer and she's slowly starting to trust me again. (: Blaaah  so ive been thinking about "douche bag" and its weeeeiird , i really miss him , but i just dont want to go back with him cause im scared to get hurt. He put me through shit, and hurt me so much. i just dont know what to do. Everything reminds me of him. If he changed and asked me out again, id take him back. but he'll NEVER change. </3 . gaaah well for good news ; i started work today , it was GREAAAAT :D im learning so much . being an apprentice/assistant is hard work . LOL its fun. ordered my jaaacket ; should be here by next week ((: and im getting a makeover of my life tomorrow at work by my aunty/stylist. cant wait :D Weeeeell thats an update with life - so bye . LOL .